Unreal

Hello darlings,

The days are weird now.. I'm not sure that I am explaining them right to anyone, honestly . I don't even know if I know how to explain them to my self. Life has to go on, even though you're gone, and that is still not something I feel I understand. I wake up, I get ready, clean house , make food or whatever, go to work, and then come home. There is no taking care of you two, getting you ready for grandmas babysitting, or picking you up after work and spending all my time with you. It's almost like I have to forget every dream I've had.. And I feel like half of my life/memories are missing now. Like I'm living a whole different life, I'm a whole different person.

I miss you both so much. There is so much I wish I could share with you, so much I wish I could share with the world about you ... But I have only a few memories with you. As much as that is unfair and hard, I will cherish every single moment I had with you amazing baby girls.

We hurt so much because we love you & miss you so much, more then words, or prayers or anything will ever be able to say.. I pray everyday that you know how much I love you, how much I miss you. I hope you are hearing that girls.. Oh how I hope.


I miss you.
I love you.
And I will forever think about you both, every day..


Goodnight my angels .

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be .. "