Monday, February 25, 2013

Being thankful.

Hey baby loves, 

Today I was reminded how much I need to thankful for, how much I take for granted..,a very special friend of mine I battling a horrible disease, and it may eventually make her forget her family, forget her children... And I cried for her, she cried for me.. We cried together. 

We shared our stories of heartache & pain, and worry and doubt. It was so sad,but she is such a wonderful person I felt that I could share you and our journey together with her. I cried so hard while foiling her hair, and she got up in the middle of it and hugged me really hard and asked God to put a healing hand on me, and help me. She is such a strong and admirable woman, keeping such a strong faith through all that she has and is going through.. I want to be like that.

I AM thankful , you two are blessings for me, for your daddy, for your family. I will never be ok or feel it is right that we lost you, that you left too early, and that we got cheated of our time with you.. But I DID get time with you. I got to watch you grow, felt you move and roll over, see you wave hi to me on the u/s screens, and feel my love and heart grow stronger and bigger every single minute with you two. 

I hope to be a good person, to live a good life for you two to be proud of . I have a long way To go, and I still wake up and go to bed every night not knowing how I'm going to face another day without you.. But I won't forget you, I won't lose the memories of you two.. And that, i will forever be thankful for. Because those memories are cherished more then you will ever know.. 

I love you my sweet angels, my beautiful girls.. I miss you so much, so much, and love you even more.

Goodnight babies, xoxo mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living 
My babies you'll be.." 

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