Support group help

Hey love bugs, 

Tonight daddy I went to our first support group meeting, it was in Greenville. I've been wanting to do this for a while, but was terrified as to how this would go. I knew it would be hard and it would be sad.. It was. We went around introducing ourselves and telling our stories, well what we wanted to share anyway. When it got to us, I cried talking about you.. Actually every time I said anything about you I cried. It was nice to get to talk about you though, it felt good to share you with people who understand and know what this is like, this unreal pain and hurt and guilt and sadness. Although it makes me so sad so many people have had so many losses and know this pain , I wish no one had to feel it..

We stayed and talked with some people and I feel like this is going to be good for us, for our family.. I really hope so girls. We need something. 

I feel hopeful, that we are going to be ok.. Although I don't feel that way everyday, I guess it's a start right? I miss you both so much, and I love you even more. I'm so thankful and grateful for this memorial jewelry I have for you two girls, I wear it all everyday. The ladies there loved the necklace your aunts made me for you two . It makes me feel like a part of you is always with me, although you always will be because you are my heart. 

I hope we can get through this, I hope I can do this. Life has been so unfair, and so hard on us, but I'm thankful you will never feel this pain or this suffering. You will only know happiness and good things, and I'm so glad . You only deserve good things, always. 

I love you girls, so very much, always and forever .
 Xoxo mommy 


" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always 
As long as I'm living 
My babies you'll be.." 

Goodnight babies..