4 weeks.

My sweet girls, 

Today is 4 weeks since we have said hello.. And goodbye. Today hasn't been the hard day, I've thought about you quite a bit, but I'm expecting this Tuesday, the 12th to be hardest day. 

We babysat your cousin delaney tonight. It was really nice to get to have some time with her. When your grandma and aunt Ashley aren't around, she plays with me and uncle Jamey a little more. I cherish the bedtime time with her, because she cuddles and loves you up. Although tonight it was hard, because all I thought about were you two. I love that little girl so much, and I wish I would get to blow bubbles with you, spin and twirl in the kitchen , and pick you up and take you to bed and read bedtime stories too. That's one of the hardest things abut losing your sweet babies, is realizing every day all the dreams and future plans you had for them, disappear right before you, and having to remind yourself of that every day.. 

Alena and Jamie, I still am so sorry and really can't help but hate myself these days. I can't believe we lost you, I can't believe I lost you, that my baby girls are gone.

I love you, I love you both so much. I miss you, I miss you both so much. Your mommy and daddy miss you and love you so. 

Please take care of each other for me, and look out for one another. Don't forget me, don't forget daddy,  don't forget your family. Remember and feel every day how much we love you, and how much we miss you. 

Goodnight love bugs . I love you 

" I'll love you forever 
I'll like you for always 
As long as I living
 My babies you'll be.. "