My angels,
Today marked one month. One month since we said hello, and also goodbye. One month since I gave birth to you girls, and then had to let you go. I miss you so much. We let off balloons for you today. Everyone either wrote letters on them to you. Daddy and I wrote letters and put them in the balloons for you. Oh I wish you get them..
I didn't get ready until 3 today. It wasn't that I necessarily couldn't, I just didn't see what was the point. I just stayed around the house all day until your daddy got home. I took the day off work because I didn't know what the day had in store for me..
We are having a pretty rough time right now. Struggling to keep it together, to help each other through this. I believe we are a strong couple, but right now we are having some pretty hard times. We start our support groups next week, we have one in Greenville and Spartanburg. I hate that they are only once a month, but it's what we have. I'm really hoping girls , that we find some comfort and figure out how the grieving process and taking with other people will help.. Hopefully it will.
I can't tell you enough how much I miss you.. How much I love you.. How much we need you here. Sometimes the days get easier, but mostly they are harder or just the same. This new normal sucks, and I will forever hate it. Why this had to happen and ruin our lives, our plans, our future with you, I just don't know.. We never will ..
We love you girls, we always will. Everyone loves you so much, and I wish you were here to feel all this love. I know you can there, but it's just different.
Goodnight baby dolls, momma loves you and misses you more everyday. Xoxo
" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."
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