Sleep tight

Hey baby loves,

I miss you both so much today. I was just talking to your daddy about how sad I am about all the things we are missing with you, and all the things we are going to miss. How uncertain a future is for anyone anyways.. But ours seems so much more uncertain now a day. Or at least mine does without you two here..

Who would you look like? Who would you be? Where would you be in your milestones? You would be almost 7 months.. I can't believe how close that is to a year.. I can't believe I am still here .

I know you're in heaven, and a much better place then I could ever give you... But that doesn't make it any easier , or easier to accept, or make me hurt less. I'm selfish... And I'm your mommy, and I should get to watch you grow up and be babies to little girls, to teenager to grown woman.. That was my role, my honor, my whole being.. And it's just gone..

I'm sorry sweet girls, I'm going to stop and say goodnight. I shouldn't be saying all this.

Goodnight my angels, may you forever know how much I love and adore you.. And miss you.

Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for Always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."