4th of July

Happy 4th of July sweet girls,

I hope you are enjoying the fireworks. They are too loud here so I hope you are just getting to see the beautiful bright colors. This is yet another holiday first without you, but I am so hoping it was a good day for you. Actually I know all your days are wonderful & amazing days because of where you are and who you are with.

I miss you baby girls. Today was really hard. I went into your room today and actually cleaned some stuff out, And it tore my heart into pieces. The onesies your grandma bought you two, the ones your aunt did, the snow bear outfits your daddy and I picked out for you.. They were all for you, and now I'll never see you in them. I don't even know if I can bear to keep the rocking chair in there because just looking at it hurts. I can remember everyday going in there an listening to music and rocking with you Nd singing and rubbing my belly.. Telling you how much I loved you and couldn't wait to meet you both..

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, my heart is yours .. Always and forever

I love you Alena Marie and Jamie Rae.. I love you.

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be... "