Today marks the 6 month anniversary of your birthday..and also your getting your wings day. I expected it to not be a very good day, but i did a lot worse then I thought I would. I had a horrible breakdown with your daddy, and I was so angry, so angry with everyone and everything. I tried breaking my phone and just lost it. Idk what happened but it just took over and hurt., it just hurt so much. Your dad is such an amazing person, he really is my strength at all times. I kept pushing him away and telling him to go away and leave me alone , but he just sat there and wiped the tears off my face and told me he loved me. I can tell you right now, I don't deserve him..not one bit. I can e so horrible, and he is always the sweetest, most gentle spirited man. You girls are truly blessed to have him as a daddy.. He loves you both so very much.
We wrote letters to you and got pink and yellow balloons to put the letters in. We let them go from the front yard of the house today. I always hope those letters reach you both somehow..
Goodnight my beautiful girls. I can't believe it's been 6 months since I've had to say goodbye.. And have my heart break into a million pieces.
I love you both dearly, and dream about the day of finally holding you close again.
Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy
" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."
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