Long day.

Hey Sweet angels,

I am very tired today. It doesn't help my friendly reminder of what I don't have has came to visit me today, so that doesn't help..

Tomorrow is 6 months since I've lost you. I feel like I am preparing myself and my heart for doomsday.. That's exactly what It feels like to me. I can't believe it's been 6 months girls.. I can't believe I am still here, that I have survived 6 months alone without you here.. I just can't believe it. Idk if survived is the right word, but coping i suppose.

I think your daddy and I are going to try and do something special for you tomorrow.. I'm just now sure what. I hope we can think of something really meaningful . I also hope it's not too sad of a day, that we can make it through it. Idk what I'm expecting, but this anniversary dates are horrible girls.. Just horrible .

Goodnight my beautiful girls, I love you love you love you dearly.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."