Lonely.

Hey beautiful girls,

I feel I don't have much to say about my days. I feel this writing you like this must be boring to read, or I look like I lead a very boring life.. Ad honestly, I feel I do sometimes. Right now there should be so much chaos In this house, and I should be sleepy for staying up all hours of the night with you.. But there is only chaos in my heart, and I'm sleepy all the time anyways, just because things are really  depressing without you here, or I just am because idk ..

I hope you know I'm always thinking about you. I'm always wondering what you would look like , what would you be doing.. What would we be doing together?

My HeArt is so torn, and so messed up without you here. I'm a shell of my old self, just trying to make it to the next day I suppose..

Goodnight my beautiful angels. Mommy loves you both so so very very much. I love you Alena Marie and Jamie Rae .... I love you.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."