Progress..

Hey baby loves,

Today was another therapy day. Angela said even if I don't feel it or think it.. I'm getting a little stronger.. And I have to say some days I really feel I am. I didn't cry As much today, and I could talk a little more.. But still I know I'm never going to be strong again, or as strong as I was. Right now all I am is grieving, mourning, coping mother of two beautiful Angels.

I had CRAZY clients today., idk why but it was a weird.. Very weird day today. Your daddy also said  his day went well. He got a new boss and things haven't been going so well.. So a good day for him is a good day for us.

This new normal sucks, I don't even get the word " normal" or " new normal" . This is my life.. My life with out you.. There's no word to describe a life to live without your children.

Goodnight my beautiful Angels, how I miss your sweet faces and gentle kicks in my belly.. I miss those everyday. They were my favorite part of every day, it was the coolest more amazing part of being pregnant.. Feeling and watching you two grow and move.. Absolutely amazing.

I love you sweet baby girls, I love you.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."