Tired.

Hey baby girls,

I'm tired of feeling left behind, of being lonely, of being afraid of the future and things happening. I don't want this to be the end, but if its the beginning, I'm scared.

This is the worst pain I have ever known, and sometimes it doesn't feel as painful, but it is still just as deep. I miss you Alena and Jamie, so so much. I just want you here, why does that have to feel like asking too much?

I love you both so much, I hope you can feel that love my dear sweet darlings, I just want to be able to give everything.. Everything.

I love you baby girls. My sweet girls, I love you.

Sweet dreams love bugs...

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."