Inspiration

Hey beautiful girls,

I really am not doing well this week with writing you , and I am once again sorry. This week has been a really crazy week. I know that doesn't excuse but I love you both so very much.

Today was the day we have been waiting for, and once it got started, it went by fast thank goodness. It's been a hard day, for many reasons. I had a little episode earlier before I got called back. But everybody talked me into a better state of mind, and they are pushing me into a more positive state of mind.

I feel like you two are my inspiration, what's pushing me to stand up and try. Try to breathe. Try to live. Try to get through this life without you.. The days are hard, and I really do just want to give up somedays. But when I found out we were having you, when I first saw and heard your hearts and movements,and as hard as it was to see you like I had too..you girls are so beautiful. And why I hope I can make you proud and happy.

I love you beautiful girls, sososo much. Miss you even more then yesterday. I love you.. Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
Ill like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be..."