I'm sorry

Hey baby girls,
I'm sorry I didn't write you last night, the wifi is not working well here and I'm not sure this is even going to post to the blog tonight. I feel horrible when I don't get to write you, and I'm sorry. Today your daddy and I went to New York. It was really amazing. I have wanted to go to New York for so very long, and since we are so close , we just decided To go. There were some really amazing places, and I wish you would have been here to see., but the things you see are much more beautiful and amazing.. I'm sure.

I'm worried , and I'm scared girls. I know we never get to see the future, and we aren't supposed to know what's going to happen.. But I'm so worried to take chances now. I keep going forward, but take two steps back when it comes to my faith. I'm excited, I'm nervous. I'm optimistic,
I'm negative. I'm a basket case I feel... I need you. I just don't get why you aren't here with me. We shouldn't be here, we shouldn't be anywhere but cuddling you at home and getting ready to put you to bed..

I love you and I miss you both so very very much. Please always remember that. Always & forever sweet baby girls ..

Goodnight my sweet angels, I love you girls

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."