Hey pretty girls,
It has been raining non stop for about 4 days now, it's been crazy. I actually feel that I am starting to go stir crazy.. I wanted to get out but your daddy has just wanted to stay in. He's gotten on a kick of starting series of tv shows, and he is on his second one now. I cAn only watch so much.. Him on the other hand can watch all day. We were supposed to go to Carowinds today with his work, but obviously with the rain and it getting so cold, i was surprised they didn't cancel it.
I miss you both so much. I really am so scared this is the end, that you will be our only babies, and you are in heaven. Nobody likes me thinking like that, and I am trying not too. I don't always feel that way, but sometimes it really takes over.. And it's so hard to think positive.
I'm getting a surgery done at the end of this month. I feel we are doing everything right.. And then I feel we are getting ahead of ourselves. I just need some certainty , some guidance, some help. I don't want to be afraid, I want to be strong, I want to be able to handle this and do this girls, I do. But it's so hard because you should be here, and we shouldn't have to,be going through this.. And unfortunately we are.. I miss you and I love you.. So so much.
Goodnight my sweet angels, I love you so.. Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy
" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."
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