Sunday, April 21, 2013

Wow.

Hey sweethearts,

Tomorrow is April 22. Exactly a month until your due date.. Well actually tomorrow was supposed to be your due date, since you are twins, they expected you here a month early,, and tomorrow was going to be your birthday.

I miss you both so much, I don't know how to tell you how much or to explain this hurt and longing for you two. I think about your constantly, and close you both so much. You are my life, and it's so hard living it without you two..

Thinking about the future is terrifying , but it's something we have to do. I hate waking up everyday and feeling worried, and dread and hurt and pain.. It's so scary, and I just.. Idk.

Honestly, I just cAme here to write you and tell you I love you, and miss you more then you will ever know Alena and Jamie.

Forever & always ..

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
 I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.. "

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