Another day.

Hey my sweet baby girls,

Tomorrow is your grandpas birthday, and I can't tell you how much I wish you were here to celebrate it with us.. So very much. You two and laney would be the highlights of the day for grandpas day.

I miss you both so much. I feel like a horrible mom, a terrible person, that I am living my life. That I'm still here, and sometimes I laugh or smile and get along, and it just feel so wrong. I'm your mom and you're my baby girls, why would my life still be going on???

I want to be with you. I know you aren't alone, you have each other, but I feel alone, I feel lost without you. I'm thankful to have your daddy, and the rest of our family, but I'll always feel alone I believe, without you here with me. We'll always have our connection.

I love you both so much, and I really beyond anything .. Wish we were spending every second of every minute together , that's all I wish. ..

Goodnight my sweet angel, I love and miss you so.

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."