Hey pretty girls,

I'm sitting outside on the back patio writing this blog to you tonight. It's absolutely beautiful out, it's cooled down a little, not so muggy anymore, and it's dark.. Quiet.

I'm sitting out here alone thinking, or trying to not think about certain things. Life is so hard, it's so confusing. One minute you are the happiest person in the world, positive and free and happy go lucky.. The next minute life throws you a curve, and you are run off track. I'm so thankful you will never experience a day of pain, a day of anguish or sadness.. A day of regret. You will only ever know beauty, and happiness, and love and living a full life in a much better place.. You are the lucky ones. Although that doesn't make me any less selfish in wanting you here.

I think about you all the time. Tomorrow will be 3 months that we said goodbye, and held you for the last time.. I'm so sorry everyday, and I'll never get to tell you that enough.. I'm so so sorry.. Pleas forgive me.

I miss you so much, and think about you constantly. I'm scared I'm going to forget.. That scares me everyday that it might happen .. But I won't let it, I could never forget your beautiful faces and spirits.

Goodnight my loves, may you always feel and know my love for you two.

I LOVE YOU. ALWAYS AND FOREVER.

Xoxo mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."