Another memory.

Hey sweet girls,

Well, we made it. Somehow we made it through the day. Idk how I'm doing it, or how I'm able to laugh or smile or just be ok, it all seems wrong, like I'm forgetting you of forgetting our time together. It shouldn't be that way, and everyone says its ok to do those things, I just feel bad doing them sometimes.. Idk.

I keep thinking about how we should've been freaking out today because of  your arrival, not because it was another memory of you both being gone, not being here in my belly.. Or in our arms.

My sweet girls, I don't know how I am going to continue to live this life without you two here, but I'm trying.. I'm really trying to do this. I miss you both so much, you are always on my mind.

I love you Alena Marie and Jamie Rae.. So so much..

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."