I'm sorry.

Hey babies, I'm so sorry I didn't write you last night,

I feel like I'm trying to figure out how to write you. Your aunt Emily got me a notebook to write ONLY positive thoughts, notes, quotes, etc in, and on here ( as much as I try to be positive) I usually end up writing sad things and negative things, and I keep promising to do that.

I think that I will write when I can tell you about how my outlook is being positive again, and how faith is keeping me afloat and pushing me to better.. How your family are the most important people here, and how they keep me alive. I feel I burden enough people with my sad days, and my hurt days, And how my negativity is taking over me. I want to bring and share with you good things, and always let you know how much I miss and love you.

So with that, I will say goodnight and wake up tomorrow, trying to be a better person, for you two girls.. You are my inspiration in all I do.

Goodnight beautiful babies, mommy loves you so so so much. I miss you..

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you FOREVER
I'll like you for ALWAYS
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."