Hey sweethearts,

I sorry I didn't write you last night, but honestly I didn't have anything to say besides I love you, and I miss you.. And sad things and I've been trying to be better about that.

I opened up a little tonight and talked with a friend about you guys, my fears, my faith, my hurt and pain, my worries, etc. There is just so much and it felt good I suppose? Idk, he is a youth counselor/ pastor at his church and his mom is a therapist. I've been thinking for a while I need to go see one, and maybe she might help me/ us , maybe? But just talking with this friend actually meant a lot, and he is a wonderful, very faith filled , good hearted person. I don't know him too well, just met him a little while ago ( by your aunt Emmy) but you just get good vibes sometimes, and he def gave off those.

I'm trying to be better girls, I'm trying to let you rest in peace, and to give your names and lives a good remembrance/memory. I just hate this, and I know that will never change. I can't get over that everyday is just another day without you, that I am alone. And I know I have your daddy, and my family and friends.,, but without you girls, it's lonely, and it will always be lonely I feel. You were, you are my life, and now it's broken,..

I love you both so much, with my whole heart. Forever and always my beautiful girls..

I miss you ..

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
 I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."