Lovebugs.

Hey my darlings,

The March of Dimes kick off was today. You Aunt Ashley had to work, so your Grandma and I stepped up and went to it. It was actually ok. They showed a video of the ambassadors little boy, he was born at 27 weeks. He is now a healthy little 1 year old. It made me tear up, i actually cried. From the time the video started i grabbed on to my necklace and held on so tight. It was so sad to see that little boy hooked up to all those tubes and machines, it was scary. It only made me think about one thing: you two girls. How that could have been you, how i wish you were here , more then you will ever know, but how hard would it have been for you, would you have been in any pain?? With that being said, i have to say i would have done anything and everything to keep you alive, to have you here in my arms. It made me miss you even more, if that is possible. 

I'm thankful you are not suffering. I'm happy you are happy. I'm blessed you are in Heaven. 
And i miss you. I love you. And i want you to know that everyday, every hour, every second.
My sweet girls, you are my life, you forever will be. I am selfish and want you here with us, i want to hold you, sing you to sleep, rock you, feed you, take care of you. Protect you. I want my girls, but God needed you more, & as much as i hate to say it, you are in a better place.

I love you Alena. I love you Jamie. You beautiful angels, i'll love you forever. I'll miss you always, and think about you, endlessly. 

You left your footprints on my heart..

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as im living
My babies you'll be.."

Goodnight girls. Mommy loves you, always.. xoxo