5 months .

Hello my beautiful girls,

Today marks 5 months since we last saw your faces, 5 months since you graced us with your amazing presence, 5 months since I've had to say goodbye to my baby girls. The 12th of every month will never be the same anymore..

I miss you both so very much, so much every single day. I feel as though in some way I have accepted this is what has happened and as stupid as it is to just have to keep going on with your life, I do. I'm not saying its easy, it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, and I question why every single day.. I'm not the same.. I can smile, I can Laugh, I can be ok.. But it's not like before and it won't be anymore.. Living life without you is hard, it's the worst thing I've ever had to do, and I feel it every day girls, every day.

So tonight with a heavy heavy heart, I say goodnight and I love and miss you so much. Each day brings me a day closer to you, and that I am thankful for.

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, your mommy misses you so so very much.. I love you Alena Marie and Jamie Rae, I love you so much.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be..."