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Hey pretty girls,

Today was our second group meeting. I am so hesitant before we go in because i don't know what to expect..but once we are there it tends to go better then I thought. Tonight we made crafts, and I made earrings for your aunt Emily and Ashley, and your grandma. Well actually, I picked out the beads and stuff, and daddy put them together. I think they came out really nice. We met some new people tonight.. It's so sad and heartbreaking.. All this loss and pain in one room. But at the same time inspiring.. Because although we are all broken and hurt and angry and in pain, everyone is in some way finding a way to get through their days and live.. And that's just what I am trying to do.. Figure out how to live, to look forward to another day, and not just look at everything so negatively.

Your daddy feels that is all I do anymore.. And I guess in some way he is right. But I don't know girls, I felt I was positive for so long, and right now I just feel hopeless.. And have no self worth.

I miss you baby girls, I love you so much. I hope you hear how much love is in my voice when I talk about you at the meetings, and when I talk to you to people I feel I can talk too.. It's never going to be any less. It will continue to grow so much every day in my heart..

Goodnight love bugs. I love and miss you so much.

Xoxo mommy
 
" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be,,"