Hello beautiful girls,
Today is the first day of 2014. It is also the beginning of January, a month that fills me with sadness and pain. I am dreading and am scared for the next few weeks. Coming up on your one year is just so... Idk. It's so many things. I feel I just want to get past it and get out of this month, these next few months. Then some days I feel I need to just sit in it, and just feel all of this. All this heartbreak, this sadness, this emptiness. Idk girls, I'm really losing it some days, I am.
I'm crying a lot, I know I'm emotional anyways but I just want to cry and sleep and just past these lonely thoughts. I miss you both so terribly much, gosh I miss you Alena and Jamie. I can't even begin to explain to you how my heart aches for you. I love you girls, I love you forever & always.
Xoxo, mommy
" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as im living
My babies you'll be.."
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