Thankful

Hey my sweet girls,

Instead of dating your post, I wanted a different title. And I went with that , because tonight, I truly feel this in my heart. I'm thankful girls. You were miracles. You grew inside me. I felt your kicks, your punches, your movements. I felt you play with each other, I watched you grow bigger together. I prayed for you , everyday... Before you were even made, before I got pregnant. I prayed for you everyday growing, good news and bad news. I said hello to you together, and I kissed you goodbye together.

Everyday is a hard day with out you, honestly it is. But everyday is a reminder of our special bond, of our beautiful moments together, of our mother & daughters time.

I'm thankful for you Alena and Jamie. You made me a mom, you made me a better person. I'm angry, and sad and upset and hurt everyday that you're gone, but I'm blessed to have had you in my life. Im a better person because you were my daughters. I'm a believer, because you opened my eyes. I'm who I am, because of you two very special little girls.

I find myself realizing instead of being so angry, I need to focus on the good. On how I am lucky i was a even able to get pregnant, and then to find out I was having two beautiful babies! To have had you for the time I did, no matter how short. To have felt you and watched you grow.. To have known the love of a mother and her children... How lucky am I to have had that with you two.. Not so many have been blessed or can say that.

My life will forever have a void where you two have left, but my heart will continue to know of our love, our bond, our strength. Because your strength gets me through, your love keeps me fighting.

Thank you girls, thank you for being our blessings, for being our guardian angels.. For watching over your little brother every day. Thank you God for these babies in my life, for letting me be their mom.

I love you Alena and Jamie, always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for Always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be..