Remembering ..

Hey sweet girls,

Tonight your uncle pat and daddy went to a later movie , so I came over to hang out with your aunt Ashley and cousin Laney. We played around for a little with laney until she went to bed, and just now we were laying down , talking about you two, and I find myself wondering again and again how this happened.. How this all happened so fast, so so fast, and you were here for so little, and then gone so fast. We didn't even get any time with you before you were gone.. I just hate this so much!!! I have to sit here and miss you everyday, to miss out on life with you everyday, to try and make a life and make something of myself every day, to try and live again.. With out you.

I'm so tired girls. I fear I will be tired the rest of my life, because so much of me is missing, that I'll never be able to catch up to that half of me again. You girls make up so much of me, are such a huge part of my very being, my very existence.. That life with you seems impossible at best, most days it feels like the biggest struggle I will ever have to overcome. I just miss you both so much, gosh I miss you so much. My heart can ache so much at times that I truly believe it has broken into a million pieces.

I love you my sweet beautiful darlings. I hope you know I love you more then words can ever say, them all the stars in the sky, and all the fish in the sea. My little girls, you are my everythings.. My miracles. I love you baby girls, I love you .

Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."