Hey sweet baby girls,
I'm just having a crappy stressed out kinda day today. I'm getting ready to switch jobs, which is exciting and nerve wracking at the same time. I'm going to be teaching cosmetology, and possibly doing hair on the side.. We will see what happens.
I'm just scared and worried that I'm never doing the right thing, or it's going to turn out bad.. Or idk. But I know it's not in my hands, I have to trust in God. I feel I have turned into such a pessimistic, negative person.. And I don't want to be. Everything that happened with you, it's just too much to process or even think about at times. I can't believe I have such beautiful baby girls, but I can't show you off, or dress you up, or sing you sweet lullabies.. I just pray, and write this blog, and ay goodnight at your urn every night , hoping you are hearing and seeing all of this..
Goodnight my beautiful baby girls.. I love you so so much.
Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy
" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."
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