Hey sweet peas,

Today I went and talked with Angela . I'm wanting to work on myself. I want to be a better person, and give all I can give. I want to be the kind of person I would be if you two girls were in my arms at this very moment , because I know you two make me a better person just by letting me be your mom.

My dear Alena and Jamie.. How I terribly miss you both, and love you so so much . I wish every single day this was me just waking up from a nightmare.. But I don't get to wake up. So I just pray, and hope for the day we are together forever.

Goodnight my beautiful angels, you will never know how much I love you ..

Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."