My sweet Alena and Jamie,
Today marks 7 months since you joined us, 7 months since you've left us. It's been 7 months of pure emptiness, brokenness, hurt, sadness. But I will say, even though this isn't true every day, I'm doing a little better. I can go longer without crying, although I still do it a lot. I can smile when I think about you, or not cry when we say goodnight at your urn.. I'm trying.
Daddy seems to be doing ok, or he is hiding. He is very good at hiding if he is upset or hurt. Although he tells me he would tell me , I think he's afraid I can't handle it. So I pray and hope if he is struggling inside, that he will eventually learn I will want to help him too.
I still can't believe we are hitting another month, and to what a horrible month markers these are. Sometimes I just can't believe I'm still here...
Good night my beautiful angels, goodnight . Mommy loves you so so much, I love you baby girls.
Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy
" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."
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