Hey my beautiful babies,

I'm not one with words today, I think today was just.. Idk .

Your daddy actually talked to me a little today. We had taken some stuff out of your nursery and one of the things I felt that was hard to keep, were these two really fluffy, soft teddy bear onesie coat things we had picked out for you girls. At the time we had no idea if you were boys, or girls, and wanted to make sure they were matching.. They were just white. Your daddy apparently just took them back the other day, and told me that it was extremely hard on him.. And he was very upset. He had said something before about just keeping one of them, but said no, it is just too hard and he couldn't.. I know that was really hard on him, and it hurts me that he had to do that.

I can't believe how many plans, dreams, adventures, wishes... Just everything flew out the window when we lost you two. They just disappeared. I'm so so sorry for all the things we never got to do with you, I'm so sorry girls. I feel like I've let you down every single day.

I love you my sweet girls, I love you both so very very much.
I miss you with my whole heart..

Goodnight my angels, goodnight.
I love you, always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be..."