Walk to remember you..

Hey baby girls,

Today your daddy & me and the whole family went and walked at the walk to remember event that the hospital puts on every year in October. We wore our shirts today, and there was also a balloon release. We got to write you notes for heaven, and tied them to the balloons. I was so upset, we had so many letters for you that when we let them go, they got stuck in a tree across the street. Your grandma told me not to worry about it, but I just felt like that happens to us everytime we try to do something for you.. Idk. But, your daddy climbed the tree for me, and some other guy helped along with grandpa and he got the balloons out for me! I was so happy I could have cried. We let them go again and watched them float away. In my heart I want to believe so much that you are actually getting our letters and little memorials we send every once in a while..

It was a sad time, but it was a nice time to see everyone be able to get together out in the open and talk about their babies, talk about their experience, their pain, their grief, and to be understood. To not be judged, or looked at weird, or stupid things to be said. We all know, we all can help, and we all feel the same. It's a weird group to be a part of , an unfortunate one, but we somehow I think can help each other through this.

I love you my sweet baby darlings, I love you both so very very much. I hope you hear me say that enough, and that I tell you enough. You girls have brought so much love into this world, I just hope you get to see..

Goodnight my angels, I love you ,and miss you so much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be..."