Alena And Jamie,

I can't believe the time, how long you've been gone.. I can't believe i somehow have made it through..
I now know why, I do... But I still think about how much we were preparing for you,because two of everything is a lot to get. We started so early, to try and save money and prepare.. But nothing could prepare us for losing you. Nothing.

The world feels very empty at times, heck, not just the world.. My heart and my arms are. But in as many ways I am empty, you have made me a better person. I want to be more compassionate in life,more caring and more understanding. To help others, to appreciate EVERYTHING more. Complaining feels like a sin at times almost, about certain things. I want to be the mom you would be proud of, that you would be thankful for.. That you would look up to and want to be like when you grew up...

I hope I live up to being your hero one day girls...

I love you both more then time will ever reveal. Miss you girls.
Always & forever

Xoxo,mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be,.."