My sweet girls,

Tomorrow is going to be 8 months. I can't believe it. I've been thinking about it for the past couple of days, and I just... I can't believe it. I always feel like this just happened yesterday, and then it feels like its you've been Gone for so much longer. I miss you both so much. Everything is so wrong, so backwards, so lonely without you two. Life is but an endless journey, that I am struggling to find meaning in without you two here. I am very blessed to have to your daddy and your family.. But it doesn't always make this easier, or make me miss you two any less.. I just wanted to bring to home... I just wanted to start our lives together girls..

Other people have been having dreams about you two. I think it's beautiful that so many people know of you and dream about you.. But why can't you come to me? Why won't you come to me? Why can't I know you are okay, why can't you confirm that? I need to know this, I need to know that you are hearing my prayers, and me telling you how much I love you and miss you both..please come see me soon, or open my heart and eyes to reach for you and see you..

Goodnight my beautiful angels, I love you and miss you both so very terribly. My heart aches for you every single day.

Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."