8.

Hey sweethearts,

Today marks 8 months since we've had to let go and say goodbye. I always anticipate the 12th of the months, because I never know how I am going to feel. Sometimes it can be worse then others, I think I'm starting to just realize no matter what everyday is going to be hard in its own way, honestly.

I'm anxious, worried, stressed, sad, mad, hurt... I am honestly a mess of emotions every single day. I don't know how pretty much anyone can deal with me or be around me. I just pray everyday I'll make it somehow to see you again.

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, I love you both so very very much.. I miss you terribly.

Forever and always
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."