Hey girls,
Daddy and I had a little date night tonight. We haven't dressed up and gone out in a while, and your dad decided to take me out. It's really funny how fast I get tired , and just wanna get back home to pjs and blankets. I feel I've really gotten old lately... Although I also feel some days I have aged a thousand lives, thinking about losing you, and what that's done to me.
I feel so different at times, that I'm struggling but getting by. Sad , but okay. Life is so different now, I never saw or felt myself ever being like this. I feel so desperate at times, that I am grasping at straws. I know I was anxious before, but my anxiety can be so crazy at times.. I don't know if I'm really happy, i dont know what I am girls. I feel stressed and tired and just crazy, honestly crazy. I'm so boring, and just.. I feel like nothing a lot. I wish I didn't feel like this, I wish I was okay. I wish you were here, and I wish I felt like something. Idk ... I'm just lost. I know you will help me find my way, I know you girls are here for me & I love you both so very very much for it.
Thank you for being there, for watching out for us.. I love you my sweet girls, I love you both so very very much.
Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy
" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."
Goodnight girls
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