November 15

Hey baby loves,

I found out something a little mind boggling, I guess you could say..
Do you remember in the hospital when I sang you " I'll love you forever..?" Well I write it every night on this blog to you, and i sang it. Your aunt Ashley sent me a link about why the book was written , and where the inspiration came from..

The man that wrote it lost two babies with his wife, and he said when he lost them , those were the words that came to him, and they were originally a song, but years later he wrote a book for them. I cried girls when I read that, honestly. I just.. I have no words. It felt so close to my heart, so crazy.. Even if you were here I know I'd be reading that book to you, or saying the song to you every day. I loved that book when we were little, your grandma would read it to us all the Time. She loved it too.

I just miss you both so much, and I feel so torn at times, I truly do. I'm fighting so much, trying not to lose all hope all the time. People are probably tired of talking, of listening, of going over things over and over.. But if they don't know, they don't know..

Anyways loves, I'm writing to say thank you. Thank you for being MY inspiration, in more ways then one. Thank you for watching over us, all of us. I love you Alena Marie and Jamie Rae, I love you both so very very much.

Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."