December 7th

My dear girls,

Tonight Carly and I are over at grandma and grandpas . Your daddy and aunt niki went to visit his parents. We are also watching the big ohio state & Michigan state game. Your uncle and daddy I'm sure are going back and forth picking at each other. I haven't been watching too much, I've had a horrible headache all night.

I miss you both so very much. I'm having a harder time now that Christmas is getting so close, I feel every day I am breaking down in some way. It's just gonna be an easy time. I'm not even sure I want to put up decorations, or a tree. Daddy wants to, but idk. I just am gonna try and stay busy and think of all our wonderful , special time together girls. I'm gonna try..

Goodnight my sweet angels, I love you both so very very much. I miss you terribly and wish I was holding you now, kissing you and snuggling you up real tight to me. I'm sorry I'm not home to say goodnight, but know that I love you Alena and Jamie Roush.

Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

December 6th

Hey my baby girls,

Your aunt niki is visiting today. We've had a nice day visiting with her. We got to show her the new house a little bit. This weekend we might try doing a little bit more.

The weather was really different today. It was really warm, 76 degrees! It was really pretty, especially at night time, I love the weather like that at night.

I miss you sweet girls. Niki and I talked about you a lot today, about how much we miss you and love you both. Which is so very much my beautiful girls, much more then I'm sure I could ever say, write, or tell..

I love you Alena Marie and Jamie Rae, I love you both tremendously.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

December 5

Hey sweet peas,

Tonight was grandmas birthday. We went over after dinner to do presents and cake. Your aunt Emily's cake turned out really yummy, everyone loved it.

Tomorrow I am going to pick up your aunt niki from the airport. She is coming to hang out with us for the day and then your daddy and her are going to see their parents. We are going to try and really get into the house working this weekend, but we shall see how that goes.

We haven't put up Christmas decorations yet, I'm not sure when or if we are going to. I want to get the tree up at least, I have decorations to put up for you girls.

My heart aches for you both so much, how I truly do miss you and wish you were her, every single day. I love you my baby girls, I love you truly both so very very much. Thank you for being our guardian angels..

Goodnight my darlings, may you never forget how much we all love you..
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as im living
My babies you'll be.."

December 4

My sweet girls,

Momma is prolly gonna head to bed pretty darn soon . I'm starting early tomorrow and gonna be busy. Plus, the weather has been really crappy lately, real overcast and dreary, just kinda puts you in a weird mood.

Tomorrow is also grandmas birthday, so we will be going over there later to do cake and presents. Your aunt Emily is supposed to be making grandma some sort of pumpkin cake she wanted, so I hope that turns out really good for grandma.

We are just working on getting through the holidays, getting everything wrapped up for those, and trying to get things ready in the other house.. Staying kinda busy , trying to.

I miss you both so much. I wish more then anything you were here. Thank you so much for looking out for all of us, for being our guardian angels. You two girls are everything to me, and I love you both so very much..
Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

December 3

Hey love bugs,

I think your momma is coming down with a cold or something. I'm hoping it is allergies, but I am thinking its a cold :(

Today was an okay day. I wasn't that busy , just had a few clients. Next week is gonna be a busy week though. Your aunt niki is also coming in to see us on Friday so I will be going to pick her up.

I miss you two so very much. I hope you know how much I truly love you both.

Goodnight my sweet girls, I love you .

Always & forever
Xoxox mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

December 2

Goodnight my sweet baby girls,

I love you and miss you so very very much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as im living
My babies you'll be.."

December 1st.

Hey my baby girls,

Today is the first day in December. Daddy is getting ready to finish up his exams for school, and we are working on over at the house. I feel we will definitely be working a lot more once school is over.

I love you both so much, and miss you terribly. I am finding myself having some hard nights lately. I am trying to stay strong, but sometimes it just doesn't work. Poor daddy is having to help me a lot. It's just hard to imagine our first Christmas not together.

I miss you my beautiful girls, I love you both so very very much. I hope that you know that, that you always will know that. Never forget it, because I'll never stop loving you.

Goodnight my beautiful sweet girls, I love you and miss you.
Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."