My sweet girls,
Today I had a flashback, not a very good one I guess. It was of you two, of the day I found out I was really going to lose you, the day before your birthday. I felt like I wanted to break down. Sometimes it's crazy how those come out of nowhere, how they just hit you, and you don't know what to do. I think sometimes I can handle it better then before, and sometimes I feel just as weak. It's just not something I will ever get over, something I will never understand.. No matter how hard I try.
I miss so much with you, I've missed so much with you, and will continue to miss so much with you. Losing your children is horrific, unnatural, and should never happen. I feel I will forever feel that it wasn't your time, no matter what anyone says or feels. I trust in The Lord , and know that he is with you, with us, with your brother.. But I'm still mad at him sometimes girls. I'm still hurt by him, upset with him.. But as much as I hate to say it.. You are in a better place with Him. Just save a place for me my sweet loves..
I love you, I love you both so very very much. I know you are watching over us, all of us.. Thank you for sending us your rainbow baby brother, for sharing him with us.
always & forever my loves,
Xoxo, mommy
" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long As I'm living
My babies you'll be.."
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