Wednesday, February 5, 2014

February 5.2014

My sweet girls,

I was looking around online today on my support groups, and I noticed more moms having blogs like ours. Not just telling about their story, but writing to their sweet babies. I sometimes wondered, well I knew there were more out there, but I haven't seen many. It hurts my heart, it really does.. But I hope these moms/families get some healing through writing their sweet babies like I feel I do writing you two girls. I know you two know how my day is going to go before it even begins,, but I always feel I need to catch you up on it, or something.. I'm not sure.

Today wasn't a super busy day or anything, just a running around day. Went to the doctors, cleaned up a little, took Carly to the vet, and went to your grandmas. It was a really pretty day out today. It started out rainy and nasty, but turned into a pretty sunny day. I even got to sit outside for a little.

I miss you my sweet darlings, I think about you all the time. I got a reminder tonight just how much it still hurts, how fresh the pain can still be at times. I never believed it would ever go away, I know it won't.. But sometimes I feel I've aged a thousand years, and some days I feel it was just yesterday.. Today was one of those days.

I love you Alena Marie and Jamie Rae, I love you both so very very much.
Always & forever my loves.

Thank you for being our guardian angels.

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

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