February 28.2014

Hey baby girls,

Well, we have reached the end of February, and also your mommys birthday today too. We all went out to dinner and then came back to our house for cake & presents. It was a nice day. Only thing that would've made it better, would have been having you two here with us.. Well, that would always make everything better. I miss you my sweet love bugs, I really do..

Goodnight my angels,
I love you both so terribly much. My heart aches for you everyday.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

 " I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 27.2014

Hey boo bears,

Well, mommy has got a 3 day weekend this week. I ended up working weds cause I was not working Friday, and I'm pretty excited to not be working a few days.. Give me some time to get to be off my feet !

I've been having to drink a lot of lemon water And v8 juice to try and help this crappy rash your momma has got.. I would like to think that it is working. I hate having to take meds with it though too. I'm just hoping it goes away soon girls.

Daddy is doing good. Still keeping up with school and homework. We had a late night last night so I think we are going to turn in early tonight. The weather is starting to cool down a little bit again. Makes it hard to get up in mornings again..

Goodnight my beautiful angels, I love you so very much. I miss you with my whole being, every day.
I love you'll always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 26.2014

Goodnight my sweet beautiful baby girls,

I love you and miss you both so very very much. Not a day goes by that you are not on my mind.. That I wish we were together.
Thank you for watching over us, for being our sweet, beautiful guardian Angels.

Goodnight my loves,

I love you so much. Always & forever

Xoxox, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 25.2014

Hey love bugs,

Today was a crazy day at work.  Just had a little bit more to do then I thought I did, but it all turned out okay. Had a little mishap of cutting my finger pretty good today, your daddy always says something smart when I do that. Prolly shouldn't tell him anymore, huh?

The weather is starting to cool down again. We have been in the mid 60s/70s . Grandpa says we have a chance of a rain/snow mix tomorrow morning.. It's going crazy over here.

This stupid rash is still kicking my butt girls. Some days I feel I might be beating it, but other days I feel it's just getting worse. I hope it goes away soon! It's exhausting being so itchy all the time.

Daddy is working on his hw, and I'm writing you and prolly going to hit the hay. Still one tired momma..

Goodnight my loves of my life, I truly adore, love, cherish, and miss you every single day. I feel I will never tell you that enough.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 24.2014

Hey you sweet peas,

I miss you two sweet girls.
Today was a pretty good day. I had a busy day at work, and then daddy cooked us an awesome dinner and we went and got some ice cream with aunt momo. Lately we have been so tired, we basically eat dinner , daddy does a little hw, then we go to bed. Things have just been a little emotionally draining lately, Well I guess at least for me at times. But I still have many many things to be grateful for, and I remind myself of that every single day.

My sweet darlings. I miss you, I cherish every moment we ever had together, and it look forward to the days I will see those beautiful faces again.

Always & forever my loves,
Xoxo , mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as living
My babies you'll be.."

February 23.2014

Goodnight my sweet beautiful angels.

I love you & miss you both so terribly. Thank you for being our guardian angels, for watching over us, for being the amazing girls that you are..

I love you Alena , I love you Jamie.. Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long  as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 22.2014

Hey sweet peas,

I love you. I love & miss you both so much. I was talking to a client today about losing you, about how devastating it was, and how my world turned upside down. How I felt I lost my faith, that I had nothing to look forward to, nothing to help me through this. But you two made me realize I will see you again, and that through all this, I need to stay strong in my faith to ensure I see your beautiful faces once again, to hold you and kiss you.. And truly never let you two go , ever again.

Thank you for being our guardian Angels. For watching over all of us, always. You girls mean everything to me. I love you, forever & always

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 21.2014

Hey sweet things,

Today the weather was beautiful, and your momma was able to go out and get some things done today. It's supposed to be nice the rest of the weekend, so lets hope that's what happens!

I miss & love you both so truly very much. I feel like I always do, that I never have things to say, or enough to say, or what I should be saying on here... Idk if that makes any sense or not. It's just , I guess I get on here to just let you know how we are, what we are doing, and how much we care about you sweet little girls. As long as I can continue to let you know that everyday, that's all I care about..

Goodnight my sweet angels, I love you so much. Always & forever

Xoxox mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as im living
My babies you'll be.."

February 20.2014

My sweet girls, 

I love you both so much. I just truly want you to know that. 

Today was an okay day. I'm just so tired girls. 

I love you my sweet angels, always & forever

Xoxo, mommy 

" I'll love you forever

I'll like you for always 

As long as I'm living 

My babies you'll be.."

February 19.2014

Hey sweet peas,

I miss you both so much. I've been having a hard time with my emotions lately. Just been feeling really down and not great about myself, as a person, as your mom. I feel I am failing in this girls, and I just don't understand why. I feel I've waited my whole life to be a mom, to have a family... And I've already been doing not such a great job at it.

My sweet girls, I love and miss you both so very very much, I hope you know that, and I hope you never forget it. It's the one thing I need you to always hold on to, to always trust in, to always know in your hearts..

Always & forever my loves,

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as im living
My babies you'll be.."

February 18.2014

My beautiful loves,

I am writing to say goodnight. Momma is not feeling well today and gonna try and hit the bed a little earlier tonight. I just always want you two to know how much i love you, and how much I truly miss you..

Goodnight Angels, I love you both so much. Always & forever
Xoxo , mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
as long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 17.2014

Hey pretty girls,

Well, we are back to our ole routine again.  Now that all the snow is gone , no more snow days and back to the grind. Daddy with work and schoolwork, me with work and housework.

We are all doing okay right now. Just trying to stay busy and work through things. Your mommy has gotten an absolutely horrible rash, nothing I do will fix it or help it, and i feel I've tried about everything girls. Luckily, my friend kari referred me to her dermatologist and I can get in tomorrow.. So wish me luck girls. I'm hoping to find some sort of relief.

I miss you too so very much. I think daddy is waiting on me to say goodnight.
I love you my beautiful babies, so very much.
Always & forever

Xoxox, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 16.2014

Goodnight my sweet angels, I love you both so very much, and miss you terribly.
Thank you for being our guardian angels and watching over all of us.

Love you baby girls, always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as Im living
My babies you'll be.."

February 15.2014

Hey sweet girls, 

Daddy and I were both off work today, so we got to spend another whole day together. It's been really nice to have had all this time together, but I know next week will be hard because we will be getting back to the normal work schedules. 

We had a busy day today, putting together stuff at the house and doing some things at grandmas house. We are excited for her to be here. She will be here in almost a month! I know your grandpa is very excited. Your great aunt dena and her husband will be here a little earlier then that, so I'm happy for grandpa for all of that. 

The weather is going to be crazy here this week. We just had a bunch of snow and ice and 20 degree weather, and by the end of this week it will be over 70 degrees! But apparently everywhere is having crazy weather right now,, idk girls. 

I miss you. I've had a couple of hard moments today... I wish you two were here so much. I watch laney play and can't fathom somedays how much she would love to have known you, to have had two little sweet cousins to play tea party with, to watch George and Dora with , and just overall be best friends, cause I know you would have been.. 

My sweet girls, I truly love and miss you both so very very much. 

Always & forever

Xoxox, mommy 

" I'll love you forever

I'll like you for always 

As long as Im living 

My babies you'll be.."

February 14.2014

Happy valentines day my beautiful little girls,

Today I would have had you both dressed up in so much pink you wouldn't have known what to do.. Well actually that would probably have been every day , honestly. You know your momma loves pink.

Today daddy went back to work and I got some stuff done that needed to be. All I'm all it wasn't a bad day.

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls.

I love and miss you both so very very much. Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 13.2014

Hey sweet peas,

Well, we had another snow day today. It was snowing/ice this early morning but by lunch time the sun was coming out and starting to melt everything, so we will for sure be heading out tomorrow.
This next week is supposed to be in the 60s , crazy huh?

Daddy is still doing school work, I'm still just cooking. Trying to control all this craziness of myself. I miss you both terribly, and wish you were here everyday.

Goodnight my beautiful girls, I hope you Always know the strength and truth of my love for you, every single day.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as im living
My babies you'll be.."

February 12.2014

Hey girls,

Well daddy got his snow day he wanted today. It wasn't too bad this morning real early, but once it started coming down, it hasn't stopped. We actually went outside just a little bit ago and walked around and played with Carly. I kept telling your daddy I couldn't believe how much snow we had gotten, it's crazy for South Carolina.

You girls would love it. I really wish you were here so we could all be outside playing in it together. Bundling you up to take you out, little snow bunnies..


Goodnight my beautiful love bugs, I love and miss you both so very very much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as Im living
My babies you'll be.."

February 11.2014

Hey sweet peas,

Snow snow snow. We've gotten some good snow today, but most of it is melting. We are supposed to be getting hit with A LOT tomorrow early morning. Daddy things he will have a snow day.

We are doing pretty good. I know you baby girls are watching over us, and I thank The Lord everyday for you two, and for watching over your little brother.

Thank you baby girls, for being you. I truly love and miss the both of you more then you will ever know..

Goodnight my sweet girls, I love you.. Forever & always

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 10.2014

My girls, 

Well, we are about to get a bunch of snow again. Daddy is really hoping for a snow day, I hope he gets one too. 

I love you my baby girls, I love you so very much. Thank you for watching over all of us, for being our guardian angels. I'm so lucky to call you my babies. 

Always & forever my sweet loves. 

Xoxo, mommy 

" I'll love you forever

I'll like you for always

As long as Im living 

My babies you'll be.."

February 9.2014

Hey sweet peas,

I hope , no I pray that a day never goes by that you girls don't know my love for you. That every day you are made known of how much you are loved, how much you are missed, how much you have changed mine, our lives.

My beautiful girls, I hold you in my heart until i can hold you heaven...

I love you, I love you forever & always

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as Im living
My babies you'll be.."

February 8.2014

Hey sweet peas,

Today I went in to work and daddy did his usual Saturday homework. I had a pretty busy day, it wasn't bad. The weather is getting a little bit nicer, well at least for this weekend. I know next week is going to be interesting.

I was talking with my client about you girls today. I feel I am able to talk about you more and more. I think it might just be talking to certain ones, idk. But that's a good step, right? I want to be able to talk about you and not cry every time , because I'm so proud of you, and love you both so terribly terribly much.

Goodnight my beautiful angels, thank you for watching over all of us.
I love you baby girls, always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 7.2014

Goodnight my sweet baby girls,

This momma has had an interesting day. Not bad, but not great either. I think I'm going to turn in early since I am working tomorrow.

I love you both so very, very much. I miss you terribly.

Thanks for always watching out for us, for guarding over your little brother..

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be""

February 6.2014

Hey love bugs,

I am one tired momma today. I find myself getting more and more tired earlier lately. Although , it's not early now when I am writing you, so I guess that could be why.

Just another work day, came home and been hanging out with your daddy tonight. I'm sure he will have a bunch of hw tomorrow to do.

I will say goodnight my beautiful babies. I love you both and miss you girls so terribly much.
I love you , my Angels.. Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 5.2014

My sweet girls,

I was looking around online today on my support groups, and I noticed more moms having blogs like ours. Not just telling about their story, but writing to their sweet babies. I sometimes wondered, well I knew there were more out there, but I haven't seen many. It hurts my heart, it really does.. But I hope these moms/families get some healing through writing their sweet babies like I feel I do writing you two girls. I know you two know how my day is going to go before it even begins,, but I always feel I need to catch you up on it, or something.. I'm not sure.

Today wasn't a super busy day or anything, just a running around day. Went to the doctors, cleaned up a little, took Carly to the vet, and went to your grandmas. It was a really pretty day out today. It started out rainy and nasty, but turned into a pretty sunny day. I even got to sit outside for a little.

I miss you my sweet darlings, I think about you all the time. I got a reminder tonight just how much it still hurts, how fresh the pain can still be at times. I never believed it would ever go away, I know it won't.. But sometimes I feel I've aged a thousand years, and some days I feel it was just yesterday.. Today was one of those days.

I love you Alena Marie and Jamie Rae, I love you both so very very much.
Always & forever my loves.

Thank you for being our guardian angels.

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 4.2014

Hey sweet peas,

The rain came back today. It seems like for the next few days we will be having quite a bit of rain. The weather is being crazy right now, yesterday was over 60 degrees and told was only high 30s.. Very cold.

I went to Greenville today and had lunch with your daddy, that was really nice. I always enjoy getting to do that with him. Today I was okay.

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, I love you both so very very much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 3.2014

Hey baby loves,

Writing you kind of late tonight, I'm sorry. We had our last group tonight, and then came home and did some internet research on something's and talked to grandma for a little bit. Your daddy is gonna be up late doing hw again it seems. I think that might just be the new normal around here for a while. I hate it for him, because I know he's tired and it's a lot sometimes for him. I know you are as proud of him as I am.

I've been able to express my feelings more and more about you girls. About my worries for the future, my anxieties, my hopes and dreams... I want .. No I NEED the world to know how much you two mean to me, what a difference you have made in all of our lives, always for the better.

Goodnight my beautiful angels, thank you for watching over all of us.. I love you sweet things..
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as Im living
My babies you'll be.."

February 2.2014

Hey sweet girls,

Tonight we had the family over for a Super Bowl party. Well, mostly for food , the game was horrible. Grandma rooted for the underdogs again, and she was right once again on them winning .. Somehow she always knows ha.

I don't have much, just the same as always. How much I miss you girls, how thankful and grateful I am to be your mother, and how much I truly love you both. Remember that, always.

Goodnight my loves,
I love you forever & always

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

February 1.2014

It's February girls,

I prayed for this month so hard last year, and I found myself in the Same position this year, praying for this month.. Praying for this day. I truly believe you are watching over me, watching over your little brother.. You two somehow keep finding ways to show me, show the world how truly wonderful and amazing you two are. I can't say it enough, how much of a blessing you girls are to me, how much of a blessing my babies are.

I love you Alena Marie and Jamie Rae. I love you both so very much. I can't tell you that enough. I pray not a single day goes by that you don't know my love for you.

Goodnight my angels, I love you forever & always

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."