December 14th

Hey my sweet angels,

It's been a busy day over at the new house. I cleaned the kitchen today and painted some more trim. Daddy has been painting something furious. We are trying to get done as soon as we can. Daddy is definitely moving a lot faster then me.

I miss you girls very very much. I love you Alena and Jamie. I think about you two all the time, wish you were here with all of us. I just always want you girls to know that, and to know that I am sorry , I am truly sorry every day.

Thank you for being our guardian angels , for watching over all of of us . You girls mean so much to all of us, and we miss you so much. Thank you.

I love you both so much .
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be..."

December 13th

Hey baby girls,

Sorry I'm writing you so late tonight. Daddy has Been working late at the new house, and I've just been coming home and getting ready for bed, doing a little reading on stuff. We both have the weekend off, so we will be over there once again this weekend. Daddy obviously is doing a lot more of the painting then me, granted he won't let me do much of it anyway.

Thank you my baby girls, for being our guardian angels and watching over all of us.. I love you both so tremendously much.. Much more then you could ever know. I miss you sweet girls.

Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

December 12

Hey sweet girls,

11 months. Sometimes on these days I have no idea what to say.. Just at a lose at how time flies by, but goes so slow.. How I feel so lost at times. how i feel I've aged a thousand years, but am stuck in the same place.. I just don't know.

Not a day goes by that I don't bring you up in conversation, or think about you, or talk to you girls... I miss you both so terribly much and wish we were all together.

I love you Alena and Jamie, I love you very much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" ill love you foreverv
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

December 11

Hey baby loves,

Mommy is so tired tonight. Although your daddy would say that I always am.

Tomorrow is going to be 11 months. I really can't believe that. I can't believe how long it's been, but also I can't believe how fast time has gone by. I'm not really sure where we go from here. I guess we just keep going day by day , just like we've had too. I don't really have much of a option to do anything else, huh?

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, I love you both so very very much.
Thank you for looking out for all of us, and being our sweet guardian angels.
I miss and love you girls.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
Ill like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be..."

December 10th

Alena and Jamie,

Daddy and I have been working at the house tonight, just got back a little bit ago. I don't have much to write tonight, I'm so tired from working and then coming home and working on the house, so I will just say goodnight my pretty baby girls. I love you both so very very much.

Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

December 9th

Hey pretty girls,

Rain rain go away. It's been raining and cold here all day today. Hopefully for not many more days. I'm okay with it being cold, but like one of my clients said today, with the Rain it just chills you to the bone.

I hope you two know how much I miss you and love you. I wish so much we were all together, getting you ready for your first Christmas, our first Christmas pictures as a family.. Just a lot of firsts I wish we had to have together..

Goodnight my beautiful angels, I love you and miss you both so very very much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

December 8

My baby girls,

Not much to write today. Daddy is home, we are gonna try and really get into the house this week. Finishing up painting and carpeting and stuff. Hope all goes good with that...

I'm so tired today. The weather went from really warm the other day, to really cold and rainy today, it's crazy. I like the cold, just not the rain or nastiness.

We are just trying to stay busy, things are just hard right now.
I miss you my sweet girls, I love you both so very very much.

Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

Goodnight girls