November 7.

Hey sweet peas,

Another post to say goodnight. On these days i hate that I don't have much to write, but I feel bad just writing a bunch of silly stuff or non interesting things , when I want these posts to mean something. I know , like I just said I don't have a lot to say at times, but this is something I can do for you.

Goodnight my beautiful Angels, mommy loves you so very dearly. I miss you so so much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll loveyou forever
Ill like you for always
As long as Im living
My babies you'll be.."

November 6th

Hey pretty girls,

Accepting you being gone can be done some days, some days are harder then others. I wish I could check in somehow , but honestly it would be silly because I know you are in a much better place then we are in. That's where I guess faith comes in, to believe you are safe and happy and taken care of. I don't doubt that at all, it's just hard because I'm your mom, I'm supposed to be doing that.. It's my job.
But you girls deserve the best of everything , absolutely everything, and that's what heaven is. As hard as it is for me to accept you being there..

I love you Alena and Jamie, my sweet little girls. Thank you for the wonderful things you've brought into my life, for watching over us. For guarding us.. My angels. Love you so so much.

Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

Goodnight girls.

November 5th

Alena and Jamie,

Tonight we had another bible study. I felt this one really spoke to me about you, about us, about how we are supposed to work through this.. To get through this together. To stay strong in our faith and realize that God is here, through all of this, and that we will be reunited again. I say this with some conviction because it hurts to be saying this to you, to continuously remember how you aren't here, and just.. Idk. But I want to be strong, and be the mother you girls deserve.

I love you my sweet angels, I love you both so so very very much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

Goodnight girls.

November 4th.

My sweet girls,

This time change is really messing with me, I'm so stinkin I tired I can barely keep my eyes open. It gets so dark so early now, you feel like its time for bed when it's just dinner time,, it's very weird.

I miss you sweet girls, I love you both so very very much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

Goodnight my beautiful angels.

November 3

My love bugs,

Today has been a weird day of sorts you could say. We woke up early and went to church, daddy worked on his homework all day again , and I did some things around the house . I haven't been feeling well today so I guess we are all ready for bed.

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, I love you both so very very much. I miss you terribly, every moment of every day.. I miss you.

I love you Alena and Jamie, goodnight.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

November 2.

Hey sweet girls,

Today was a hang out day. I got up early and did some shopping with grandma, and daddy did some work on the house with grandpa. Then we came home and he finished up schoolwork . I went over to pat and Ashley's for a tailgate party they were having. We also went to a bonfire our friend was having, so that was pretty nice to get out and see some different people. It's gotten pretty cold lately,we had to sit/stand so close to the fire so now I stink like it.

I think we are doing okay. I am honestly just taking it day by day still. Obviously some are still harder then others. But I know you girls are trying to help me, I just know you are.
Thank you darlings, for watching over us, for helping me, and being our girls.

I love you both tremendously, so so so very much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be..

Goodnight Alena Marie and Jamie Rae.

On to November..

Hey sweet girls,

I'm writing to say goodnight. I went and talked today,I think it did me some good. I hope so at least.

My dear girls ,i love you tremendously and miss you both so very very much. Thank you for being our baby girls, our miracles... And for looking out for us and for being there. Thank you my darlings.

I love you very very much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy
"I'll love you forever
Ill like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

Goodnight sweet girls.