August 31.2014

Hey sweet peas,

I've been thinking about you both so much lately.. And feel myself getting more upset and just wishing you were here so much. A couple of times I was signing to your brother , and just started crying. I love you all with my whole heart...I can't stop asking why..

Some days I find myself bitter and upset, some days I'm okay. But overall I just miss you both soon terribly, and go through my own little storms I guess. Thank you for watching over our rainbow though to help keep me having faith and Hanging on to hope. :)

I love you my beautiful baby girls, I love you more then you will ever know.

Always & forever sweet peas,

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
as long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

August 29.2014

Hey sweet peas.

I can't believe we are almost done with August.. It's crazy to think about.
I am getting ready for fall though, I think everyone is ready for fall. It is truly one of the prettiest seasons, and it's been a really really hot summer, so it will be nice to have some cooler weather come around.

I miss you dearly. I keep thinking about how exciting and fun it would be to be planning JJ & and you girls Halloween costumes.. Just diff stuff , like I always do..

I can't get over how much stuff we will never do together, that I will never get to see you experience, that we won't do together. Sometimes it overwhelms me girls. I miss you both so terribly, and I know in way that probably no one will understand.. JJ will too..

I love you sweet peas,
Always & forever

Xoxox, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

August 27.2014

Hey baby loves,

Writing to say goodnight .

Not too much going on today. Mommas gotta get some stuff done before bed, but I haven't gotten to write you in a few days and just wanted to check in.

I miss you both so much. Your aunt Ashley took some cute pictures of your cousins and all I kept thinking about was how I wish I was taking pictures of all of you too.

I love you baby girls, always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

August 25.2014

Hey sweet girls,

I love you so much., I miss you.

Goodnight my sweet baby girls.
I love you always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

August 24.2014

Hey sweet peas,

I'm sorry it's been so long since I've wrote you. This has been one tired momma.
We took your little brother to Greenville today. We also took Carly . We just went downtown and walked around, got something to eat. Reedy river falls is really pretty, and today was a really nice day. I'm glad we got to go. I don't take him out as much as I prolly should, so I'm glad we went.

Last time we were there, I remember crying and being so upset and just wanting to go home because it was after we lost you, and everyone had their babies out there and I just wanted you two... I just wanted to be there with you, you to be with me..

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls,

I love you and miss you both so very terrible.

Always & forever

Xoxo, momma

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
 As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

August 21.2014

Hey love bugs,

Been a crazy few days around here. Today was a really long day at work. It was nice to see some clients I haven't seen in a while, but just a long day.

I miss you too so very much.
I love you my sweet little angels

Thank you for watching over all of us, for watching over your baby brother.

We love you so much and miss you always, never forget that.

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

August 18th.2014

I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

August 16.2014

Hey loves,

I can't believe I've let myself go so long without writing you.. I keep saying I'm going to write during the day, but for some reason I always want to write before bed.. I guess it's because I want to say goodnight to you.

Today was your aunt Ashley's birthday. We went over for cake and presents, like we always do. It was a nice night. Happy birthday aunt Ashley!

I miss you both a bunch. I told your daddy today that I have times where I'm just sitting with your brother, or sitting somewhere in the house, and imagine you two running around with other brothers and sisters, all playing and laughing. It still feels like you should be coming home any day now...

I love you Alena Marie and Jamie Rae, I love you both so terribly much.

Always & forever my loves,

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

August 8.2014

Hey sweetpeas,

I'm sorry I haven't wrote in a good bit. Your aunt niki and Barbie, your cousins and your grandma came earlier this week, and stopped by today too. They are spending some time with us before they go home.

Its been raining something crazy lately. Everytime I turn around and write you, the weather is rainy and poopy! We've had some pretty days of sun, but overall it's been a really summer.

Goodnight my sweet beautiful girls, I miss you both so very much, and wish you were here right now.  I can't tell you that enough, and I will always try my hardest to make sure you will always know how very loved, and how much you are missed every single day.

I love you my girls, always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for Always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

August 5.2014

Hey baby girls,

Just checking in and saying goodnight.

The rain hasn't been so bad the past couple of days. We've been able to get outside and take your brother for some walks, it's been nice. I can't believe how weird the weather has been lately. We def need the rain, but it's just been a lot this year.

I miss you girls, I really do. I wish you were here everyday, every single day..

Goodnight my angels, thank you for always watching over your little brother, for watching over us.

Love you both so very very much,

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

August 2.2014

Hey sweet peas,

We've had a busy couple of days. Your grandma Roush, aunt niki and Barbie, and your cousins tristin, charley and Parker came to visit. It was a busy house we had. They were on the way to grandmas and stopped here to see your baby brother. They will be coming back for a few days in a week again. It's hard having family far away, I wish we all just were able to stay close always.

We've also had an attack of ants, we've had so much rain it's driving them in. It's disgusting! Daddy and I cleaned out pantries and they even got in my car!!! I like to think we are pretty darn clean,but it makes you feel really nasty.

It's cooled down a little bit, but I think we are going to get back warmer in as few days. It's been nice because it feels like fall is coming, but we've got a little bit for that.

Your brother is growing a bunch. I feel just last week we were still in newborn, now he is fitting 3-6 months. He's doing so good girls, I know you are watching over him and being the best guardian angels anyone could ever ask for.

I wish you both were here so much. I wish I had gotten to decorate a beautiful pink room for you, or whatever you would be wanting now. I wish I wish i wish..

Goodnight my beautiful angels, I love and miss you both so very terribly.

Always & forever my loves,

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you fore always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."