June 29.2014

Hey baby girls,

Well, tomorrow I start back to work. I know I'm only working a couple days a week, but I'm still on the fence about it. I love doing hair but I want to be with your little brother so much more.. I guess we will see how it goes.

I miss you both so very very much, and love you tremendously. I wish you were here to see your little brother growing up and doing so many new things... Things you should've been doing too.

I love you girls, always& forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

June 26.2014

Hey sweet peas,

Just getting ready to head to bed and wanted to write and say goodnight. We had a visitor today that I would never have met if you girls hadn't been in our lives. We met her the first year we did the walk for you. Her daughter had lost boy/girl twins, and she came up to us and talked to us and hugged us and just overall was sweet and kind and told us how sorry she was for us losing you.. We cried together and hugged . This year she ended up finding us again and got to find out we were pregnant with your brother. She has been so kind and been texting me and helping me with stuff, and brought her grandsons over today to meet JJ and brought him and us some gifts. She is an extremely kind hearted woman.

Losing you will forever be the worst pain and heartache I will ever know, but God knew I would need people to get me through this, and I've met some amazing people throughout all this.. It doesn't make any more sense or lesson the pain.. But it helps to have people to talk to and want to listen and talk about you girls ..

I love you both, and i love how you are watching over your baby brother. Thanks for helping him have a good day today girls. I love you tremendously and miss you terribly.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be..."

June 25.2014

Hey my sweet girls,

I haven't forgotten about you, I most certainly never could. Your poor little brother doesn't give me a spare moment with this poor gas/fussiness/colic he seems to have, so writing has been few and far in between,, I'm sorry loves.

I'm writing to say goodnight and let you know I think about you all the time, And still miss you so terribly much. I wish so much you two were here with us, I know you would be such a big help with your little brother.

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, we love and miss you so very much.thank you for being our guardian angels..

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

June 22.2014

Hey sweet girls,

I'm sorry I haven't wrote in so long. Your little brother hasn't been feeling well at all lately, so I've been behind on a lot of things, And I'm sorry.

We don't have too much going on right now. Daddy still doing a lot with work and school, and I am heading back to work in a week.. :( your aunt momo wedding is coming up in about 2 weeks, that is just crazy! Grandma has been keeping real busy with all of that.

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, I love you both so terribly much and miss you every day. Thank you for watching over all of us and being our guardian angels. We love you girls.  Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

June 16.2014

Hey pretty babies,

We are getting ready to head to bed.. Well jj and I. I think your daddy has some homework he has to stay up and finish.

I miss you sweet girls, thought about you a lot today when we had jj and everly hanging out . I was picturing you two doing that also.

I love you Alena Marie and Jamie Rae, I love you so much.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

June 15.2014

Hey sweet peas,

Were doing pretty good. Your brother is 1 month old today. Thank you for watching over him all this time.

Miss you sweet girls, miss you so very much. I love you both so terribly much.

Always & forever..

Xoxo, mommy

 " I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
So long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

June 13.2014

Hey sweet girls,

Your cousin everly graced us with her presence today. She came at 8:09 this morning. She is quite a beautiful little girl, with lots of jet black hair. I know you were watching over her too, thank you girls.

Your poor brother is having quite a time lately... He is having a hard time sleeping and staying asleep, and just not feeling well lately. It breaks my heart and I wish we could help him.. Because it just feels like we can't figure it out.. And idk what to do.

I miss you two very much, and wish you were here to be here for everything going on right now. I love you darling girls, I love you so much.

Goodnight angels, know your momma misses you terribly.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

June 11.2014

Hey sweet girls,

Today's been  a good day. We just hung around the house, Debby came over for a little bit, and so did grandma, aunt Ashley and Delaney to swim. Just been doing the same ole, getting a routine I guess.

Goodnight my sweet beautiful girls, thank you for looking after your little brother. He seems like he is feeling a little better today, and I hope he continues too.

I love you both so very very much, and miss you terribly.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

June 10.2014

Goodnight my sweet girls,

Your poor little brother is not having a good day/night. I hope he is feeling a lot better tomorrow. I know you sweet peas are watching over him, so I know he will be feeling better soon. Thanks my sweet loves, I love you both so very much.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for Always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

June 8.2014

Hey sweet peas,

Just writing to say goodnight. We all went over to grandmas for dinner and dessert and just got home a little bit ago. Starting another week.. Hoping your brother sleeps good tonight .

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, I love you and miss you both so very very much.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

June 7.2014

Hey sweet peas, 

I'm sorry I haven't wrote in a couple of days. 

I'm trying to be better about writing you, and I'm sorry that I haven't. I will continue to try and be better about it.. 

Everybody was over today. Daddy and Patrick worked on his car, and the rest of us hung out and went swimming. It wasn't too bad of a day. 

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, I love and miss you so very very much. 

Xoxo, mommy 

" I'll love you forever

I'll like you for always 

As long as I'm living

My babies you'll be.."

June 4.2014

Hey pretty girls,

Today your brother and I ventured out and went to grandmas house. It was my first time driving in over 3 weeks. It was kind of scary, I'm not going to lie.. But we made it and did good.

I'm not ready to take your brother a lot of places yet, but I'd like to get out a little , him and me.

We are still waiting on your cousin to grace us with her presence. I think your aunt Ashley is ready. I know laney is for sure. I can't get over how she is about jj, and I know she would've been gaga over you both, especially being two babies at the same time!

Goodnight my sweet beautiful baby girls,
I love you both so very very much, and miss you terribly.

Always & forever

Xoxox mommy

" I'll love you forever
Ill like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

June 3.2014

Hey sweet peas,

Grandma has been coming over everyday to help me with jj, so if I need to take a shower, or get a nap, or do anything.. She is so wonderful. We are all so lucky to have her . Idk what I would do without her.

There is so much to be thankful for, so much to praise God for. I've had a couple of friends text me to pray for them going through some hard stuff right now, and I can only do that, and look at my life and thank God.. Thank him for you girls,for your little brother, for your daddy, for your grandparents, aunts, uncles.. I miss you both so terribly much, but I'm thankful for the time we had, and what it means to be your mom.

I love you beautiful girls, thank you for being our guardian angels.
Always & forever


Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

June 2.2014

Goodnight my sweet love bugs,

I'm just writing to say that tonight.. I have a horrible headache and hoping it goes away by morning..

Thanks for watching over us today.. I know you really are and being your little brothers guardian.. You two are the best big sisters anyone could ask for.

Goodnight beautiful babies, momma loves you.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

June 1.2014

Well girls, we are in another month.. Halfway done with the year, now in June.

Today we had your aunt momo's bridal shower, it went wonderful! Your poor grandma has been running around having to do all of it by herself due to us having your brother and your aunt Ashley being pregnant with your cousin and due any day now. She did an awesome job, it went off without a hitch!

We are trying to get your brother used to mornings and nights, right now he seems to have them a little backwards.. I am hoping we will fix that soon.

Daddy is still doing school, and work has been really busy for him right now. I am hoping it slows down for him soon, and that he can breathe a little. I worry about him, like I always say.. With work, and school and your little brother here now.

Well I love you my sweet girls, I love and miss you very much.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."