May 30.2014

Hey pretty girls,

Tonight we took your brother to grandma and grandpas house. It's the first place he's been besides our house , the hospitals/doctor offices. He did pretty good. Great grandma was there and she was excited to see him again.

Today when your little brother and I were hanging out by ourselves, I was envisioning you two here, how you would be all over him, loving on him and being excited to have a little brother. Every time I see Delaney with him, all i can do is see what you two would be doing. Being so happy, so proud, so loving and excited...

I know as his guardian angels you are,I just wish I could see...

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, I love you both so terribly much.

Always & forever
Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 29.2014

Hey sweet peas,

Today was your daddy's birthday. We had a steak dinner, and then everyone came over for cake and presents. It was a really nice evening. I know if you are watching your cousin Delaney with jj right now, you are prolly laughing all the time. She loves him dearly, and wants to be around him all the time. I imagined she would have Been the same with you two, prolly more so cause two babies! I guess we will see when her little sister gets here.


Goodnight my sweet beautiful baby girls, I love you & miss you both so very very much. Not a day goes by I don't wish you were here..

Love you Alena & Jamie..

Always & forever

Xoxox, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 27.2014

Hey beautiful girls,

Today was our first day that daddy went back to work. I know I wrote the other night that I was really worried because I wasn't sure I could do it with out him..

I think we did okay today. I really missed him, and still wish he was staying home with us. I had a hard time when he had to go back to work after we lost you girls too.. He's just my partner, my support person.. And helps me with everything. I know your little brother and I can do this, I just don't have a lot of faith in myself, by myself right now I guess... Idk.

Well my sweet angels, thank you again for watching over all of us another day, being our sweet guardian angels..

I love you and miss you both so very very much.
Always & forever

Xoxox,mommy

" I'll love you forever
Il like you for always
As long as im living
My babies you'll be..."

May 25.2014

Hey sweet peas,

We are finishing up our week at home , daddy will be going back to work on Tuesday. I'm really nervous about it, and hope that it is an easy week on him.. I know it's going to be hard. I am hoping its easy for me and your brother too. So many things changed when you were born, and so many things have changed since JJ has been born. We are blessed girls, we have been very blessed.. Just a lot of new changes and trying to learn how to deal with them,

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, love you and miss you very very terribly.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 24.2014

Hey sweet peas,

Today is beautiful outside. We've got the windows and doors open before it gets too warm to air the house out a little.

You're little brother is doing so great girls, he truly is such a special , beautiful little blessing . Our friends Jennifer and Megan got him a onesie made that says " handpicked for earth from our sisters in heaven." It made me cry. I had seen it a while ago on etsy/Pinterest and thought about buying it for him.. But just never made it that far. I am hoping it fits him by his first birthday, I would love for him to wear it then!

I think I'm going to try to write you two during the day now, instead of night time. Because I keep missing posts and feel horrible, but I can't get to them at night time we are so busy, and I don't want you to feel ignored or anything.. Trying to figure out how to balance this a little I guess..

I love you my sweet peas I love you so much,
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 22.2014

Hey pretty girls,

I'm sorry it seems I've been slack on writing you, mommy can do better and she will. I know you have prolly been watching your daddy and I with your little brother.. He truly is a blessing girls. Tank you for watching over him, and sending us our rainbow. We couldn't possibly love him anymore.

Thank you  sweet girls, thank you for making me a mom.. And for helping me get another chance at it here on earth.

Love you and miss you both so very terribly..

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 20.2014

Sweet dreams my baby loves,

I'm so tired today. We've had a busier day then normal, we actually had to go somewhere today, and be expected to be somewhere, so I guess that threw us off a little.

Goodnight my beautiful angels, my lovely daughters. I love and miss you both terribly.. And wish we were all here together..

I love you. Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 19.2014

Hey sweet peas,

Writing to say goodnight and tell you how much I love you.. And how much I miss you.

My sweet angels, thank you for the continued blessing of being your mother, and looking after your brother..

I love you both so very very much..

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be..."

May 18.2014

Hey pretty girls,

I'm so sorry I have been absent the past couple of nights. I know you saw your brother come into the world this past Thursday night. I prayed to you in the OR room to watch over him and I know you were there the whole time. Thank you so much for watching over him, and being there for us girls.

All three of you are my miracles, my reason for living, my reason to keep trying and keep going. I love you so very very much. You two girls are such beautiful, wonderful big sisters, and JJ is so lucky to have you both.

I love you very very much, always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 13.2014

Hey love bugs,

Finally went swimming for the first time since we've opened the pool. Well, to be fair it hasn't been opened that long and we've got it all nice and clean.. Plus had to wait for it to warm up. It was nice today. Everyone is sick though so I just swam all by myself. Carly tried jumping in, but I wasn't having that . She can be such a crazy dog girls, a sweet dog, but crazy for sure.

Grandma, Laney and I went grocery shopping today. Trying to stock up on what we need. Laney popped her balloon and freaked herself out, but the sweet people at Publix went and got her another one. Kinda just another routine day. .. I always feel like I'm so boring on here.. But some days I know what to say , and some I don't.. Idk girls.

I'm gonna say goodnight. I love and miss you both so very very much.

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
as long as I'm living
My babies you'll best.."

May 12.2014

Hey sweet babies,

Not too much going on today. Poor grandma, grandpa and laney aren't feeling well right now. This weather and pollen and all that is really getting to everybody. I am thankful to be doing okay right now, hopefully it stays that way.

Daddy is doing pretty good right now, really enjoying the break from school. He's been working out in the yard a lot, and doing things around the house. I feel bad I can't help him much but he seems to not be bothered by that at all. Although he is your Dad, and I know he is stubborn and likes things a certain way so he's prolly grateful in some ways.

Thanks for watching over us girls, and being our guardian angels. I love you both so very very much. I miss you terribly. .. I really do.

Always & forever

Xoxox, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 11.2014

Goodnight my pretty girls,

We're heading to bed, daddy did a lot of outside work today.. I helped when I could. But it was so hot and I think the heat def has got to him, and to me some.

Today was Mother's Day, and just kinda weird. I'm not really sure I fit in anywhere on this day, or where I do fit in?? And then I feel horrible about that , because you two made me a mother.. Things are just not okay without you here., I miss you both so much.

I just want you to know how loved you are, how cherished how missed.. Not a day goes by I don't think about you or pray that you know how much we love you. I know you two sweet girls have been and are watching over your little brother.. Thank you baby girls.

Goodnight my loves, I love you .. Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 10.2014

Hey loves,

It's getting hard to write at times, my stupid hands are jamming up and my fingers start to hurt. They are the worst at night and in the morning when I wake up. It's really weird and I don't understand it.

We went and saw baby fletcher tonight... You know I haven't seen a baby so little since you two girls.. It was not a hard as I thought it would be, but still took a little . Daddy ended up holding him the whole time. It's hard because I don't mean to be so weird or standoffish or others words, it's just different for me now in some ways. But I am glad for all of them he is home and happy and healthy. It's all I ever wanted for you girls..

Goodnight my sweet beautiful babies, I love you and miss you both so very very much.
always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 9.2014

Hey boo bears,

I love you my sweet peas, I love you very much.

I just wanted to say goodnight.

Love you girls.. I'm sorry everyday.

Goodnight ..

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 8. 2014

Hey pretty girls,

Today has been an okay day. Don't have much to share about today.. Same ole same ole..
Daddy went to work and I did stuff around the house and ran around a bit.

I miss you sweet girls, I miss you very very much.

Goodnight my beautiful angels, I love you forever & always

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May. 7.2014

Hey love bugs,

Just wanted to write you and tell you goodnight and how much I miss and love you both. I think about you all the time.. And I wish we were all together, just like we are supposed to be. My sweet darlings, thank you for watching over your little brother, for being his guardian angels... For being ours.

I love you Alena Marie & Jamie Rae, I love you forever & always.

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.. "

May 6. 2014

Hey my sweet peas,

It's been so hot these past few days. Beautiful, just really hot. Grandpa and I have been doing pretty poopy with the pollen this year, I hope your brother doesn't have allergies likes us.

Daddy has a little break from school, and has really been enjoying that. I'm really glad because I know having little breaks in between makes a huge difference. He gets to watch a little more tv and work around the house now, both things he loves to do.

I miss you too girls so very very much. Angela called me today and we got talk about all you sweet babies.. And as hard as it is.. I'm thankful we know how to help each other .. Because sometimes I just don't know how I'm gonna get through.

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls, I love you and miss you both so very terribly much. Thank you for watching over us, for being our sweet angels.

I love you, forever & always

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 5.2014

Hey my sweet peas, 

Today was a really off day. I stayed home for most of the day today... I just had some really bad dreams and I'd didn't feel right the rest of the day. I always wonder why we can remember the really bad dreams , but Never the good ones it seems.. Idk

Goodnight my beautiful baby girls,I love and miss you both so much more then you could ever know. 

Thank you for looking over your sweet brother , and being our guardian angels. 

I love you both so very much, 

Xoxo, mommy 

" I'll love you forever

I'll like you for always 

As long as I'm living 

My babies you'll be.."

May 4.2014

Hey boo bears,

Another day of pretty weather for outside work, or should I say your daddy worked. He cleaned the pool, mowed the yard,finished up the fencing for Carly.. He also jumped in the pool after mowing, crazy man!! It's still really cold, but he's way more brave then me.

The rest of the week is supposed to be really hot, so I am hoping it warms the pool up a good bit so we can get in. It's going to be different now being the ones with the pool, but it'll be nice having everyone over to hang out.

I think we are heading to bed early tonight, daddy must've wiped himself out today and yesterday because he doesn't like to head to bed early.. Good for me because I'm always tired.

Well goodnight my beautiful baby girls, I love and miss you both so very, terribly much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 3.2014

Hey pretty girls,

Daddy and I worked a bunch outside today. Well, I should say grandpa, grandma and daddy did. The pool is now opened, got rid of some bushes & trimmed more. Busy day. I'm thankful we have grandma and grandpa to help us so much, and be there for us.

Well, I guess I'm gonna go to bed, we have church in the morning.
Goodnight my beautiful baby girls. I love you, I love you both so very very much.
Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 2.2014

Hey girls,

Today has been an anxious day.. It's really like they just hit me out of nowhere.. I hate it so much. I wish I wasn't like this, i wish I wasn't so worried I'm gonna lose everyone ..

Today I sat outside for a little too long and burnt the tops of my legs and arms.. Oops. Won't be doing that again, doesn't feel good at all.

Grandpa says we are going to open the pool tomorrow, so that will be nice. It's gonna be a hot weekend.

Well goodnight my loves, I miss you both so very much and love you so very dearly. Thanks for being our guardian angels and watching over us..

Always & forever my loves,

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."

May 1.2014

My beautiful girls,

Today was the first day of May, entering another month. I went and hung out and grandmas house today with everyone. It was beautiful outside, perfect day. Grandpa says we are probably going to open the pool this weekend.

Daddy finished both his classes this week, and did really good on his exams/tests! I'm very proud of him. I know it's really hard on him but he's doing good.

I miss you both . I wish we were all lying in bed together. This was supposed to be your birth month, your birthdays...

I love you my sweet peas, I love you both so very very much. I miss you terribly.

Please never forget how much you mean to me, how much I cherish you..

Always & forever

Xoxo, mommy

" I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
As long as I'm living
My babies you'll be.."